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  • Mar. 28th, 2008 at 9:34 PM
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Friday nights are my lowest part of the week. Feelings of isolation, loneliness and general melancholy occur pretty much every Friday night. This may be because every Friday night I sit at home, on my own, with no one to talk to and nothing to do.

I started to watch Muriel's Wedding but decided it wasn't the best movie to watch when already feeling lacklustre. For a cult Australian comedy, it sure is damn depressing. It's about a young woman who isn't pretty and very unpopular who listens to ABBA and dreams of her wedding. She ends up running away to Sydney with a high school friend where she goes into dress shops and pretends she is getting married just so she can wear the dresses.

It's so me.

In 27 days I will be 20. And I don't have enough friends to throw a party. So as usual, I will have a 'family' dinner and pretend that I don't care.

Tux hasn't come home yet and my maternal neurosis is in overdrive. I want my little black fuzball home and curled up in my lap.
  • Mood: melancholy
  • Music:orange sky - alexi murdoch

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[info]epithetique wrote:
Mar. 28th, 2008 12:14 pm (UTC)
alrighty, you. we are all allowed to steep in our melancholy now and then, but we also have good friends to help bring us out.

aye, you will have a family dinner, because most of us do on our birthdays. and you will do something fantastic with one or more of the friends you do have - and there will be no worrying about those you have yet to meet.

on that note, is there anything you want to do to celebrate? we'll go out for dinner, for sure, but do you want to flit around oxford street or hit up Trash or Purple Sneakers or somesort? let me know. :)

you can always call moi on a friday night. i'm doing exactly the same thing you are and i'm always up for a chat. ♥

cheer up, chere amie. you deserve to be happy.
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[info]sierrazen wrote:
Mar. 29th, 2008 10:06 am (UTC)
well you hadnt replied to my text and you werent online so i thought you were probably hanging with your roomates or out with work people.

i really do want to go out to a club. i want to do that NOW. I am aching to go out like a normal person my age.

and i only really steep in melancholy on friday nights. i hate them.
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[info]podunkd wrote:
Mar. 28th, 2008 03:47 pm (UTC)
good call on the movie. it's hollywood-ized, happy edition is, apparently, 27 Dresses. weird.

number of friends necessary to throw a party: 1. and you already got a volunteer, missy!

seriously. if you want a party on your birthday and you've got one other person with you to have it with, fuck whatever else and have your damn party. sprinkles on your cupcakes! shiny banner with "happy birthday" pinned on the wall! STREAMERS WITH ELMO'S LITTLE MONSTER FACE!!

((eyebrow wraggle)) what would Gerard do? [i see arm flailing and jazz hands, personally. also, yelling things like "fuck you bitch, i'm getting ice cream."]

it's your birthday! AND YOU'RE FUCKING AWESOME. ACT LIKE IT.
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[info]sierrazen wrote:
Mar. 29th, 2008 10:00 am (UTC)
this made me smile. I know I will have fun with Jen and Caitlin, but sometimes I wish I could have a proper, enormous, awesome birthday party. Instead of always dinner with my family cos I don't have any other choice.

ELMO!!!!! awwww
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[info]sierrazen wrote:
Mar. 29th, 2008 10:04 am (UTC)
When I read the what would gerard do bit, I instantly thought of him dressed up as the Green Hornet. Bondage baby!!!
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[info]mothpie wrote:
Mar. 29th, 2008 02:00 am (UTC)
You know if I could, I'd be there.
Maybe you could have a mini party with Caitlin and Jen and dress like it's Halloween and wreak havoc again?
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[info]sierrazen wrote:
Mar. 29th, 2008 09:52 am (UTC)
Oh I know I could do that, but I couldn't have a party of epic proportions. I've always wanted to have a caberet style masquerade party but I don't know enough people for it to actually WORK.
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[info]mothpie wrote:
Mar. 30th, 2008 04:11 am (UTC)
Ahh I get it now.
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